A lot of people have problems with their first gay relationship – worries about what people will think, dealing with issues of identity – but there’s little doubt if you were doing that in the full glare of the world’s media, it would be a lot more difficult. That’s what happened with Lindsay Lohan when she started dating Samantha Ronson back in 2008.
Now Lohan has been talking about that relationship to US Weekly and has suggested it wasn’t a great experience, and that it was particularly tough as they were both in bad places in her life (many saw the Ronson relationship as part of her downward spiral at that time, which ended up with her becoming unemployable – as well as having huge legal troubles – for several years). She says, “I need to love myself first before I could be with anyone else, and I was going through a lot. Two toxic people cannot be together. End of story. We’re friends now. That’s how it started so I think that’s how it was meant to be.”
The media attention was also intense and difficult, with the actress adding, “I was bold enough to say, ‘Yeah I like a girl. And?’ That put her in a situation where she was being attacked every day. That’s not fair. And what am I left with? Heartbreak. That was three years ago. It was my last serious relationship.”
She now feels she’s in a better place, “Kids go through ups and downs, try drugs, cigarettes and drinking. It’s human nature. It took a while but it’s like “What was I thinking? Why did I allow so many sycophants and bad influences to be around me?
“I was lonely and didn’t realise it. That’s why I came back home to New York. I never feel lonely there. I see my family and have really good people in my life.”
Following her relationship with Ronson, she said she didn’t identify as lesbian, bisexual or straight, saying she didn’t know how she might feel in the future.
Lohan was talking ahead of the first airing of her comeback role, the TV movie Liz & Dick, in which she plays Elizabeth Taylor. Although if she’s hoping for major plaudits for the parts, she may be out of luck, as many reviews have been scathing and labelled the film unintentionally hilarious.